Actually, I intended to update on my daily Quran tadabbur to this blog but at current my momentum to do PhD data analysis and writing is like 200% I can finish one subchapter in just one day. Alhamdulillah, I already finish the final graph on my chapter 4 yesterday and it was like the best feeling ever. My target is to complete everything before Hari Raya Aidilfitri because you know, a thesis needs to read line by line before submission, updating new literature as well as adding or deleting sentences which are redundant or not needed. PhD thesis nowadays needs to be simple yet compact. Not something like a textbook. I am trying my best to keep it below 200 pages.

Actually, I have been dreaming about bad things for the past 2 days knowing that today I heard something very sad from a friend of mine who was my co-worker. In life, whenever you tried to do so many good things, but indeed, whatever bad things that you have done, spoken or written may hurt someone straight in the face. I remembered one advice in Islam which I never truly embrace and take time to thoroughly understand it.

Speak a Good Word or Remain Silent
That is why sometimes when we are so full of ourselves, we tend to speak more of what's inside us even though the feeling is just like a feeling and probably due to the stressful time you had at that period of time. At first, I thought, why in the world there is someone like him/her who is so busy body trying to know every single thing. In Islam, there is a saying that, we should never think bad of others. He/she may be doing it but I too never realized that I am making the same mistakes. 

I hope, my actions and things I speak in the future will hurt no one anymore. And we can never change a person attitude and put the blame on them.

Never look and blame others as they are as sinful as us too. Because we are human.
we make mistakes all of our life. but those who are loved by the god is those who realized their mistakes and repent. Not doing the same bad things again.

This Ramadhan I learnt such a beautiful lesson that InsyaAllah I will try to be the best version of myself in attitude-wise from today onwards. 
May He forgive me. 
May He forgive all of us. 

Ameen.