Bucket List 2020

Bucket List Challenge #1 (Theme: Little Things That Makes Me Happy!) - Part 1/2

NY - Tuesday, July 21, 2020 - Bucket List 2020

Always find time for the things that make you feel thankful to be alive. 

I just came out with the below list last weekend and this is my bucket list challenge that I intend to complete (insyaAllah) in 3 consecutive months.

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1. Watching the morning sun peaks through the window 

✅ (19/7/2020)

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2. Watching city lights at night from a tall building

✅ (20-23 Jul 2020)

p/s: look how sincerely happy that face was. lol

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3. Enjoying heavy rain at night @ from a tall building

✅ (20 Jul 2020)

p/s: so calming

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I shall update the 2nd post after I finished the other 3 on the list.

Heartbeats

Things that make my heart beats a little faster..

NY - Sunday, July 19, 2020 - Heartbeats

I used to listen to this Salawat as it reminds me of very fond memories back then. I remember that the feeling was honest and sincere. Listening to the Salawat now, somehow it makes my heart beats faster.

I used to pray that if something is good for me, He will let me have it. If it costs me my religion, I would rather lose it, while waiting for the Day to come where all His promises come true to the eyes of the Believers. A thousand pains in this world are nothing to me compared to the reward of eternal life in His beautiful Jannah, where sadness does not exist. And I really meant it back then when I convey my feelings to Him in the darkest nights.

All this while, He has been giving me all that I wished for, even most of the prayers I have made were mostly forgotten. Yet He remembers everything. At times when I was so fragile in remembering Him and the akhirah, He came with a beautiful solution to keep me in check of my sincere wishes back then. That is why, no matter how hard my life becomes as people may have forgotten what they have done to me, He is the only One who never leaves me alone. And I am strong because I have a strong and loving God to back me up all the time.

Somewhere around last month, I remembered clearly when I manage to find time to speak to Him silently that I missed the moments talking to Him about everything that has happened in my life. It is true, sometimes the difficulties in life that you have endured by putting all your hopes to Him is the sweetest memories in life. The happiness I felt inside was just indescribable. I said to Him that I'd really want to go back to how I used to feel for Him, and He granted my wish out of the blue.

I just wished for prayers from those who know me well enough so that you can remember me in your du'a, sincerely. The thing is, nothing in this world can beat my love for Him. And my life has once again returned to normal without me worrying about how I should say no to certain things which makes me in doubt of my choice.

Full of Themselves

Men, Society and Injusticity

NY - Saturday, July 11, 2020 - Full of Themselves

Sometimes in this life, we will meet a certain type of people. Society sees them as the people who fight for Islam. They devoted their energy, time, career and life to the religion. They become a source of reference for laymen people like us, who didn't have the luxury to learn in-depth about the religion at a younger time like them. Or lucky enough to be raised in a religious family where Islam education is being emphasized as soon as they were born in this world.

But little did we the laymen aware. These people are those who are prone to be tested by God because of their good intentions to preach Islam.

And often, these so-called religious people also aren't aware they are being tested by Him.

Living this life, they often find their own circle of friends who are similar in background. And God tested some of them to have insecurities over the people who are not practising or the non-Muslims. Some of them became too insecure about the presence of the non-Muslim, some refused to open their mind that the non-Muslim and they are just the same, just the God's servant.

I wonder if they do think that they are exclusive to God just like the Jewish did. Something to ponder upon I guess.

Some of these practising Muslim, when they persuade people to follow what they say, they try to make the conversation as kind as possible, but what they did not notice at times when they try to justify what is right and what is wrong,  they twist the concept of religion to suit their needs.

They talk about sins that we did, while not realizing the sins that they committed.

They try to justify that they talked to us in a kind manner, but they did not notice how they are being careless about the feelings of others.

They admit that they understand Islam, but they refuse to be kind and understanding.

So do they really walk the talk? Or they are just a bunch of ignorant people who deny their own understanding of the concept of Islam for their own interest. What's worst of all, they refuse to take responsibility for what they did and fight for justice.

Still.. they live believing they are kind people and they did nothing wrong to others.

And all of these reminds me of this verse:

لَكُمْ دِينُكُمْ وَلِيَ دِينِ

“Untukmu agamamu dan untukku agama aku”

2nd vision board

At-Talaq 65: 2-3 & 7

Difficulties in Life

My 2nd Vision Board and Surah at-Talaq

NY - Thursday, July 9, 2020 - 2nd vision board , At-Talaq 65: 2-3 & 7 , Difficulties in Life

Tonight I am sketching my second vision board after 4 years of sketching the first one. After reciting and pondering about the content of at-Talaq, the idea to make another vision board came suddenly. My first vision board, almost everything on the paper became reality =D. And insyaAllah, the second one as well. But first, I need to fix my relationship with Him and the Quran. Then only I can feel happy and content again.

Reciting At-Talaq, there were several verses that caught my attention. 

In verse num. 2-3, Allah mentions..

"..dan sesiapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah (dengan mengerjakan suruhanNya dan meninggalkan laranganNya), nescaya Allah akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar (dari segala perkara yang menyusahkannya"

"Serta memberinya rezeki dari jalan yang tidak terlintas di hatinya. Dan (Ingatlah), sesiapa berserah diri bulat-bulat kepada Allah, maka Allah cukuplah baginya (untuk menolong dan menyelamatkannya). Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melakukan segala perkara yang dikehendakiNya. Allah telahpun menentukan kadar dan masa bagi berlakunya tiap-tiap sesuatu".

In verse num. 7, Allah mentions..

"Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan (sekadar kemampuan) yang diberikan Allah kepadanya. (Orang-orang yang dalam kesempitan hendaklah ingat bahawa) Allah akan memberikan kesenangan sesudah berlakunya kesusahan".

Pondering this ayat, I learnt that during hard times like this, He will give me way out of this sadness and troubles if I return to Him and fix my relationship with Him. After that, He will award me with something unexpected (good things). And everything has its time, there is no such thing as forever happiness and forever sadness. He will test us to see who among His servants are truthful. That is why, if you notice, your life has its ups and downs. But what's important is, no matter in what phase you are in, take good care of your relationship with Him, your creator.

And then, during hard times, remember that the hardship you are in suits your capacity to shoulder them. And after hardship, there will be ease.

These are words of courage to motivate me to think clearly the purpose of life whenever life knocks me down. Allah is indeed, loving and kind. =)

Self Reflection

The truth is..

NY - Self Reflection

It's not the break up that hurts most.

It's the post trauma that follows it.

It's waking up and checking up your cellphone for the message that isn't there.

It's like starting your life all over again and you have no idea where to begin at all.

Self Reflection

Thank you

NY - Wednesday, July 8, 2020 - Self Reflection

Actually, it doesn't take that long for me to start to think positively whenever life knocks me down. For some reason, whenever you are being tested, you have to be thankful to Him, because the reason you are being tested is for Him to prepare you for the challenges in the future, that you can only go through them by undergoing this current hardship, and learned the value from it.

After all, I woke up just now feeling so thankful for all the memories. His plans on me will cater best to my needs during any phase of my life. So people will come and go according to His plans, new things and events also will occur as time goes by. 

What is meant to be will always find its way. If it is stated to fall on your way, no matter how many people try to prevent it from happening, He can make things happen just like that if that is what He wants to happen. And if something that even the whole universe wants to cause you troubles, He is the only one who can make em fail just like that. Failing now does not mean failing forever. You just need to have faith in Him and pray for good things to happen in the future.

For now, let us do our best in our life. Because our fate may intertwine in the future. And I will always pray for the best to happen in our life~